Blergh

My birthday is a little over a week away & I don’t want it to come. I’m not looking forward to my ‘birthday party’ plans with a group of friends next weekend anymore. I’m not looking forward to spending two days in Sydney with two close friends, on my actual birthday. I’d much rather pretend like it’s another normal day, go to work & uni & act as if nothing is to be celebrated. Because that’s exactly what I’m expecting to happen - to be forgotten. Lately I’ve felt unappreciated by everyone around me & that no one cares. That no one would really miss me if I was to just get up & move (especially one person in particular…). What’s worse is that I know how stupid I sound but can’t seem to shake the feeling. 

I just want to move away, far away, & start a new life wherever I end up. Or, for uni to start already to keep me busy & occupied so I don’t get into these horrible moods. I’m going for the latter.

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